I came across this page of “notes” from my 7 Habits of Highly Effective People daily planner from May 13, 2011.
It’s ironic that such notes are found in the context of such a page. Makes me chuckle a bit, sardonically.
(By the way, I had to look up “sardonically”, and found it interesting that dictionary.com says the root word alludes to “a Sardinian plant which when eaten was supposed to produce convulsive laughter ending in death.” Insert more sardonic chuckling here.)
It’s also enlightening that, though I have no idea what events were taking place on May 13, 2011, such churning below the surface is happening again, or continuing still, behind the scenes of other equally insignificant events happening today.
The churning. The inner turmoil, bubbling and boiling and stirring and disturbing.
I hope to God (literally) that it’s productive.
The quote at the bottom of the page from Arnold Palmer also seems ironically suitable. Concentration on what, may I ask, and what exactly is the nature of the challenge? Is it just getting through today’s daily planner to-do list? Is it achieving some competitive goal and attaining consequential rewards? Is it humbly submitting to the direction and power of Christ working within us? Is it just surviving?
When we reach inside, what do we really discover about our personal resources? Can we view the same resources from different perspectives and conclude, depending on the angle of the view, that they are either woefully inadequate or exceedingly abundant? Can they be both simultaneously?
I don’t know, but I am comforted by what must have been supernatural insight (or desperation?) poking through the mist of stirrings back in May, as evidenced by the final words I wrote at the bottom of the page.
I’m hanging on to those again today: hoping against hope, crying for redemption, confident in invisible things. May it be so, Oh, may be it so.