goodbye Joseph

Praise God from whom all blessings flow

Praise Him all creatures here below

Praise Him above, ye heavenly hosts

Praise Father, Son, and Holy Ghost

I’ve actually had days in which I’ve felt like I had it all figured out.  I’ve had days in which the full gamut of scripture fell into place.  I thought I could see God’s plan from beginning to end – or at least the outline of it.

I’ve considered myself wise.

It didn’t last long, though.  My insight, my wisdom, my grasp has been fleeting, at best, entirely imaginary, more likely.

Life gets out of the places I put it.  Death happens.  My perception of God gets pushed, prodded, poked, and punched.

God must be bigger than I’ve imagined, and found in smaller, and less obvious, places.  God is grand, and granular.  God is beyond me, in me, and through me.  God must be stubborn and amazingly gracious.

My kids sold oranges, lemonade, and rocks from a table at the end of our driveway last week.  That’s also beyond my grasp.  They made a buck, including tips.  I don’t think they sold any rocks.

The point is, I’m easily confused.  Maybe it all makes sense to sensible people.  Maybe they can get it together and keep it that way.  I can’t.  I keep losing it.

“For the kingdom of God is not in word, but in power.” 1 Cor. 4:20

Words:  blah, blah, blah.

Power:  Renee loves me.  Jesus loves me.  I’m stirred by him.  I feel him pushing, prodding, poking, and punching.  I’m taking action.  I’m doing stuff.  Jesus is leading.  I’m following.  I’m not sure where we’re going, but I’m sure it’s the right way.

Let’s go.  You up for this?  I think we’re actually doing it.  Slowly.  We’re doing it.  We’re going.  Together, we’re moving.

Goodbye Joseph:  http://prayforjoseph.blogspot.com/

5 thoughts on “goodbye Joseph”

  1. I do tend to wonder where I’m going, why and if it’s the right way. But what other way would it be? If God’s doing this, it must be right, whether I like it or not….. right?!

  2. Bob Torango – Wow! It’s great to hear from you, especially on this topic. A voice of wisdom. Your words ring true to me, and express the comfort in my foundation that has difficulty finding expression in the tumultuous surface at times. Thanks for taking the time.

    I’m happy to bare my soul, at times, if it allows for thoughts like these to find a voice. Furthermore, perhaps it is this truth, “It kills us not to have the answers to such tragedy,” that makes it worthwhile – the recognition of our lack and our absolute need for trusting in God.

    “For we which live are always delivered unto death for Jesus’ sake, that the life of Christ also might be manifest in our mortal flesh.” 2 Cor. 4:11

    I’d recommend the roast beef sandwich for lunch, by the way, with a little mayo and tomato.

  3. Ha! I settled for a Queso Bell Big Box Meal from Taco Bell. How true, Dale. What an honor to get a glimpse into the interaction between the Loving Father and mankind, made a little lower than the angels, full of doubt and fear, but having the distinction of being the apple of God’s eye. I have felt many times that the Lord picked out the wrong guy to talk to about these things, since I feel so much lack in understanding and grasping the immensity of God’s plan for His creation. But, then I remember another man that had those same misgivings and what he wrote about in his own type of blog to anyone interested in reading.

    1 Cor 1:20-2:1

    20 So where can you find someone truly wise, truly educated, truly intelligent in this day and age? Hasn’t God exposed it all as pretentious nonsense? 21 Since the world in all its fancy wisdom never had a clue when it came to knowing God, God in his wisdom took delight in using what the world considered dumb — preaching, of all things! — to bring those who trust him into the way of salvation.

    22 While Jews clamor for miraculous demonstrations and Greeks go in for philosophical wisdom, 23 we go right on proclaiming Christ, the Crucified. Jews treat this like an anti-miracle — and Greeks pass it off as absurd. 24 But to us who are personally called by God himself — both Jews and Greeks — Christ is God’s ultimate miracle and wisdom all wrapped up in one. 25 Human wisdom is so tinny, so impotent, next to the seeming absurdity of God. Human strength can’t begin to compete with God’s “weakness.”

    26 Take a good look, friends, at who you were when you got called into this life. I don’t see many of “the brightest and the best” among you, not many influential, not many from high-society families. 27 Isn’t it obvious that God deliberately chose men and women that the culture overlooks and exploits and abuses, 28 chose these “nobodies” to expose the hollow pretensions of the “somebodies”? 29 That makes it quite clear that none of you can get by with blowing your own horn before God. 30 Everything that we have — right thinking and right living, a clean slate and a fresh start — comes from God by way of Jesus Christ. 31 That’s why we have the saying, “If you’re going to blow a horn, blow a trumpet for God.”

    (from THE MESSAGE: The Bible in Contemporary Language © 2002 by Eugene H. Peterson. All rights reserved.)

    So, in our weakness, in our helplessness in light of the immensity of our circumstances, there is One that is strong and utterly able to deliver us all from our bonds and bring to us His liberty.

  4. Oh…that little boy. 😦

    You do have to keep moving forward, never forgetting to love your loved ones extra much and be grateful for all you have and see and taste and hear and smell and touch and do the best job of living you can.

    Trust is hard, I know.

    And I totally agree with the culture of fear perpetrated by the media and government and by us, because we give in and don’t fight it. We don’t have to be afraid every second, despite the dangers of daily living. Whatever you use to fight that fear, use it. We don’t have to fear, because what’s going to happen is going to happen and we can’t control it. That isn’t very comforting, is it?

    I guess that’s where God comes in. Always with you, no matter what.

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